i think the best of people.
or, at least i try my best to, but i'm used to it now, so yes
i think the best of people.
to the point where i make up excuses for them, for myself, when they give me bullshit.
so i dont hate people much, no.
there were many times where i think, why do i even bother?
when they cant be bothered?

i really do try my best to give myself reasons not to hate/be angry at people.
oh she decided not to say hi to me today. oh well, doesnt bother me because it's no one's loss.
waited for you for 2 hours, ok, i'm upset, but it's ok. people tend to be late sometimes.
tak reply text. phone kena bar kut.
tak reply email, you're out of town.
tak return phone call, it's ok, not keen on phone conversations.

time to time i remind my friends that i am a very, very, very, very patient person.
i really am.
sometimes, shit happens, and i get people apologizing to me, and i tell them it's ok, wasn't even bothered by it, yet they think i'm really angry and upset.
hey get this, most of the time, i dont give a fuck.
i dont. i cant be bothered to give a fuck.
when i'm faced with shit, i find a solution, and if there's a solution (or five) and it's effective, then why ponder and be angry?

there are many ways to piss me off, but of recent, i'd like to think that it's harder.
BUT, the last thing you should do is piss me off.
because i let a lot of things go, i give people chances not to piss me off, give me bullshit, ah i'll let it go.
so imagine the kind of bullshit that can piss me off. on a rock chart, daily dont-give-a-fuck bullshit can be considered as pebbles, and bullshit-that-pisses-me-off are the sizes of meteorites. ok huge ones. THE MOON.

YES IT TAKES THAT MUCH TO PISS ME OFF.
i digress.

i think the best of people.
i try to.
and god knows, this time i've exhausted all the kindness and consideration i was born with.
you're not worth my time.