i once heard her converse with my grandfather one early morning,
i wasnt supposed to be eaves dropping, but i was awake in her room,
she asked, what would happen if she had died first?
he shushed her and said dont be ridiculous, angrily.
and they did their subuh.

that was 2 years before she passed away.
it's been 5 years.
my favourite boy is sick now.

i cant say 'now he can see my grandmother',

because after you die, you wont remember anyone.